theresthisguy....( no more)

well, my post here WAS originally about "THIS GUY"...

But I've decided to take it down..

Well, cuz... My blog is out there for anyone and EVERYONE to read..

So that means, HE could probably read it..

I know I'm super bad at hiding my feelings, but THIS I cannot let him know until I'm totally 100% sure that he likes me back..

HAHAHAHAHAH

YES, CHOCOLATE

YES, CHOCOLATE!!
Yes, Michelle darling.. I will bake you something chocolate this week. Well, I'll try...
HEY!! This would be the best time to use that brownie mix I bought. "Oven ready in THREE minutes", so says the cover.
The packaging is SUPER cute.. Well, nice lah. Not "cute"... But nice... I will upload the pics one day... Maybe after this post...
So, Michy dear, you will have to wait till next week to get your brownies. Or I hope so. Cuz I dunno if they'll make it out the door. You know my bro and my dad. And our stomachs.. heheheh

ITS COOL.....

ITS COOL... ITS ALL COOL....
That has become my motto..
When things are going a different way then you'd originally want, you go "Its cool.." And go on with life and try to fix things in a positive lay back sorta attitude .
Or when like, your bro wants a bite out of the slice of cake you're having and he asks like really nicely, you go 'Its cool" and you give him some..
Or when like you got some thing but you know some one else wants it and you're ok with giving it to them and their like, "for real? dude. its ok. you got it." You go "Its cool..." and you give it to them.
So, me and my bro have been doing that for some time now.. And well, every thing's cool...
To sum it all up...
Its cool....

JASON!!

I missed you the second you walked out those doors... T.T
I hated watching you walk away....
The thought of me not being able to see till after.. ermm NOVEMBER?
Sigh...
I MISS YOU, JASON!!!
You were a great accompanist... And still are...
The picture of you that'll last me till our next meeting is of you in your "im a heavy drink, 100% pure" shirt. HAHAHA... Nice way to remember you right? Oh yeah... And you're small eyes that hide behind your glasses.. HAHAHA... No lah.. I will remember you for your music.. And your personality.. You're a great friend, Jason..
Cant wait to see you again...
Good luck in SPM.. YOU CAN DO IT!!^^

I AM SORRY

Sorry I was so dumb
Sorry I was so blind
Sorry I was being stuck up
Sorry for everything

to My Darlings, Mich and Joyce
(hope you guys get to read it)
Love yall...

i love my bro

I LOVE ME BRO!
Why? lol... Well, cuz he loves me too!! HAHAHAHA....
Well, some examples of his selflessness is:
He hates the smell of nail polish but that day when I was doing my nails, he helped me remove some nail polish off my finger. And well, I thought that must've been hard on the poor baby, cuz he REALLY hates the smell of nail polish AND nail polish remover. So, that was kind of him to do that for me, cuz I'm hopeless when it come to my right hand... BUT, not only does he do that, he does other things for me too, which I can't really think of right now... But I know one thing for sure, he's a better brother to me than I am a sister to him.. If you guys knew us, you'd know that THAT was TRUE....


Happy Holidays, Michy Dear... XD
You will be missed... HAHAHHA

I F'ING HATE

I F'ING HATE

Life... Well, only at times...
Now? I sure as hell hate it...
Why? Well, lemme tell you...
But I know some of yall will be like "urgh, another one of those emo kids complaining about how much their life sucks or how the world is screwed up".... Well, first of all, IM NOT EMO. But I CAN be a little emo-ish at time. And the world IS sometimes a lil screwed up..

ANYWAYS.......
My life hasn't been very kind to me lately...
You know how they say 'You are your own worst enemy'?
Well, sometimes you have to be your own best friend.
Yes you do...
Its sad but true...

SOOOOOOO........
I have been my own best friend lately...
I feel a certain distance to SOME people now...
And yes Mich and Joyce, I know I have been going NON STOP about De Notes, but I say a lot cuz i feel GREAT their. Its cool if you guys don't get it. Cuz at least I know I have something completely to myself. And I can kinda feel that you guys don't care, but its cool.. I don't care either... I care about me...

SOOOOO......
Have you ever felt alone even though there are hundreds of people around you?
I HAVE.. in class especially... Yeah, I know I've got Cammy. But do I REALLY have her?
idontthinkso....

OH YEAH....
And I HATE POSERS!!!!
Well, is that what you really call them?
Like, I hate those girls who are like 'Which boy should I lead on today, skip tomorrow and ditch the next day?... Hmmmm... Tough Tough Tough....'
Like, ewwww.. I just puked...
Well, you know what I mean right?
Like, HONESTLY? Why am I surrounded by shallow people? It sickens me..

OMG. I just realized that I SOOOOOO sound like kakak Nadira when SHE was 15.. YAY me... Now at least I know who I might become...

You know what?
I can't even remember what I really wanted to write today...
Well, I know its that I hate my life right this moment.
Won't hate tomorrow morning, cuz I'll be at De Notes... My sanctuary... HAHAHA....
Note to self: make sure to write about De Notes for the whole world to see. Cuz music people will love it...

What I really wanna say, I cannot...

Lets just put it at that...

Ok, lets try this

"Tell me where it hurts now, baby" I have no one to tell
"And I'll do my best to make it better" No one really can..
"I'll do my best to make those tears all go away" You're probably the reason

That was 'tell me where it hurts' by MYMP...