this is late

Going through my photos on my computer, I realized that 2008 was a big year for me.
I have so much to be thankful for.
08 was the year my Music really kicked off.
08 was the year I started making a name for myself
08 was the year I really developed myself in what I love
08 was the year I lost and gained so much more
08 was the year I matured and tried learning to not let little things bother me
08 was the year that will change my life forever

"I wish I could repeat December 08" says Liyana
"NO! You were so busy!" Gina protested
"That's why! It was a great month. All the shows I got to do!" Liyana explained.

TEEHEE

I think I really need to thank God for all this. He has lead me to where I wanna be. He has brought me to places I never knew. Thank You Lord!

Ok. Let's come back to the present.

I wish I could stay in this moment.
The time where school is still not fully settled in yet.
The time where everything is going slow.
The time where I can keep hanging with my friends in class.
The time where teachers are still hardly in class.
The time where there's still time to go out and hang out.
The time where nothing really matters yet.
The time where all of us can tell each other really lame stuff and laugh together.
The time where new things start.
The time right now.
I could repeat these 2 weeks over and over again. Cuz the people I love are all present during this time.
I hope nothing changes. But I know that won't be. Cuz people go away. Well, in my case, just ONE person is leaving. I hope he doesn't. teehee. He makes us all laugh. TEEHEE.

I know its the beginning of the year, but I am SOOOOO happy you guys are in my life. I wanna thank you guys. I can't name everyone, cuz... erm... whatever. Anyways, we'll wait till Dec 09 and see if everyone is still here. Then I'll thank you guys.

HugHugKissKiss!!

(I can't be bothered with colors anymore)

new year, new class, new things to kick ass at!

So, I don't think I've blogged about anything since the new year. TEEHEE
So, its the new year.... ermmm.... yay?
So far I've only gone through 2 days of school. Not too bad. Getting used to it.
The... erm.... Good or bad part about it is that its on the FOURTH FLOOR. The highest.
Bad cuz it gets so tiring. Good cuz imma be so skinny by the end of this year. TEEHEE
So, yeah. LOL was last year. This year its TEEHEE. For me I mean.
My classmates....hmmmm... are...... INVISIBLE? Well, to me, SOME are.
I have fun with SOME selected people only.
So, you selected people should feel very fortunate that I choose to hang with you.
HAHAHAHA. Yeah, that's just me being perasan.
Yeah, that's something that makes you laugh eh?
So, our teachers keep warning us that form 4 will be a culture shock for us.
Yeah. I'm waiting for that.
So far its not too bad. I think this year will be good. TEEHEE
So, I've got it all planned out.
Bakat Lok Yuk first
Then Bakat Interact
Battle of the Bands
KK Music Fest

Hmmmm... That's what I know of now.
More gigs will surely show themselves to me...

TEEHEE

So, I think I'm done now.

I leave you with a TEEHEE

embrace the rebelious, full of angst, pathetic teen you truly are

I am 15 going on 16.
I think I'm going through the REAL teenage phase.
Why do I say that?
Cuz I don't care much about anything except having fun.
Cuz I get annoyed too easily with what _____ say
Cuz I never thought I'd go through what I am now.
Which is I hate _____
All I wanna do is have fun.
And _____ is/are giving me lots of crap!
Honestly!
I know who I am.
I know what I am capable of.
I know what I wanna do.
I know how to make things work out.
So freaking trust me! JUST FREAKING LAY OFF!!

What I live for is the love I have for performing. I love the high I get when I'm on stage and people and there showing their support.

I know what I want.

And my stupid results dont count for SHIT.

Its amusing though, I've got 2 A's 2 B's 2 C's 2 D's. hahahahaha

Hey, at least I passed everything. That's awesome.

Oh don't you worry. I have a plan. No matter what, I WILL do what I love.

Watch my ____? I wouldn't have a ____ if you didn't annoy me with stupid unnecessary questions that I'm sick of just saying "yes" too.

Conclusion: I realize i AM now one of those teens that are like "So? What you gonna do about it?"

>:(

Thank You Student Fellowship Night! THE F'ING PARTY OF THEF'ING YEAR!!!

I just got back from the damn party of the year.
For those who couldn't be there, I feel so sorry for you.

I just wanna say some thanks yous today:

Thank you Kevin Tan for coming into my life and getting me into De Notes. Without you and your school, I wouldn't be the RockStar Diva I am today.

Thank you Gordon Chin for backing me and bringing an energy with you that makes me hype!

Thank you my "darling" Jay. You have backed me with many songs. I know you can totally kick Daniel's ass any day! Thanks for helping me.

Thank you my BRADDER! Victor Ting, for supporting me and laughing with me. Thank you for introducing me to Head Banging, which at first made me dizzy. But cuz of you, I can now head bang so much till my neck get sore and STILL not get dizzy. hahahaha

Thanks Debbie, the greatest Bass player in the world!! Thanks for making the show as great as it was!

Thanks Frederick for giving La Bamba and me JUST the right groove. Just enough to make me dance too.

Thanks Jan, my real bro. I'm real proud of you for doing "I'm with you" with me and nailing it!

Thanks Steve, Ricky and Daniel for dancing with me. You guys helped me lose so much weight tonight! hahaha. Now I know who I can bring clubbing with me when I turn 18. Wait, actually you guys jumped with me too during all the rock. So I know who to bring to concerts too! AWESOME!!

Thanks Daniel once again for dancing with me through the slow songs. Anyone would be lucky to have you. Love you loads!

Thanks...erm... Tim I think, from Blaming Sarah, for taking me by the hand and taking me somewhere new. Hahahahha. I mean, thanks for reaching out to me as I was reaching out to you when I sang the line "take me by the hand and take me somewhere new"

Thanks Darell! Your jump was JUST right. I hope I'll see you soon. Maybe by then you'll get your hair long enough to head bang with me! Oh yeah. You're Darell, and you're HOT!

Thank you to all the bands that played tonight! Erm... I cant remember all your names. All I know is Bread and Jam, and Blaming Sarah. You guys made me JUMP! That other band from Sri Insan I think, I only know one guy wich is Zeb. So yeah, you guys rocked! Thanks for the lollipop!!

Thank you people who supported me and loved me on stage! Without your energy I don't think I would have been so rockin'!

Thanks Marc from Bread and Jam. You told me that you loved that I sweat on stage. Inside I was like "WHAT??". But you continued and said "It means you're giving it your all". Which I totally was! I'll try to remember to give it my all till I sweat! HAHAHAHAH... eeeewwww....

Thanks Gavin Young for taking cool pics. Looking forward to seeing them. You were cute!

My babes Gina and Cheryl. I feel so bad for you guys. I'm sorry you couldn't make it. But I dunno if you would've loved it as much as I do. You guys don't seem like the rocker type. Maybe thats why we're best mates. We're all so different from each other. Love you guys for supporting me whatever! LOVE LOVE LOVE YOU!!

Thanks organizer whom I dont know. I loved playing for the party tonight. Make it a annual thing k? That'll be the most awesome thing!

Thanks Mom for helping me with my make up! And dad for dropping us off and picking us back up.

This was the party of my life yet. 2008 was the greatest year of my life YET!

So, my results and coming out in a few hours. And all I can say is,

" I don't F'ing CARE! I don't care what I get! I don't care what stream you f'ing send me to! Cuz no matter what, I'll still be the most rockin' chick in school!"

THAT'S WHAT'S UP!

So, I guess thats it. Goodnight!

Goodbye 2008!

I'm Liyana. And I'm a SuperRockStarDiva!

And you know you can't resist me!

HugHugKissKiss!

Goodbye 2008

2008.
How you have brought me happiness and sadness.

This year was BIG for me.
This year was the year I found my place in the music scene.
Well, a SMALL scene. heeheehee

2008 was the year I:
Did not fall in love
Acted most like a teenager
Cried tears of hurt and pain. But joy too
Did not and DID socialize
Embraced angst
Didn't care what people thought and just acted like ME.
Spent too much on clothes
was taught how to use make
made many new friends
grew
fought
learned many new things
discovered new ways of feeling
met great musicians
did too many things that i cant recall

So, I wanna bring in the New Year with a bang.

So, can anyone help me find a BANG?

My Hot List

I've decided to make a "Hot List"

Feel free to do one too. Any kinda "Hot List" is fine. Just as long as it's HOT HOT HOT!!

My "Hot List" is:

"The Hot Men of Music"

Oh yeah......

1. The Men of Panic! At The Disco
-Brendon Urie
-Ryan Ross
-Jon Walker
-Spencer Smith
(I just think they're HOT!!)

2. Gerard Way (from MCR)
-I like rocker guys like these. Like Brendon Urie and Gerard Way have some kinda weirdness to them that to me is really hot. Gosh I feel like Paris Hilton. "That's Hot".... totally... But its sad that THIS guy is married.. sigh. He would've been on TOP of my list if he wasn't married.

3. The boys of NLT
-Travis Garland
-Kevin McHale
-Justin Thorne
-V Sevani (Yup, brother of Adam Sevani)

4. NeYo
-Dude, he's HOT! He's got moves, makes sick tracks and SINGS!! Like, HELLO!! Do we all really need anymore other reasons to love him? I didn't think so!

5.Chris Brown
-He's like a mini NeYo. But I really hate the fact he's with Rihanna. Sigh. How a heart breaks eh?

6.Jesse McCartney.
-He's cute and has a nice voice. Good producer. Nice tracks.

7. Synyster Gates (Lead guitarist from Avenged Sevenfold)
-The only thing that made me put him on my list was his solo in Afterlife. That's Hot.

8. Jared Leto
-HOT. Thats all I can say. I mean, the fact that he's in a rock band is HOT too. Like I said, "I like rockers"

9.Trace Cyrus and Mason Musso (the 2 front men of Metro Station)
-Like I said. Rockers.

10. Patrick Stump and Pete Wentz
-HOT. I actually like Patrick more than I like Pete. Not only cuz Pete is married and has a baby with Ashlee Simpson. But cuz Patrick has more qualities that I like. hhehehhee.

So, thats my list.

Can't wait to see yours

I don't wanna be here anymore.

its sounds emo, i know.
But no more please.
No more singing for not me.

I don't wanna be there anymore.
I don't I don't I don't.
I'm not enjoying myself anymore.
I'm not I'm not I'm not.

I don't wanna walk through those doors again.
I just want this phase to end.
I don't like this pressure.
I don't like that you don't understand.

Its the last time for this year. I swear.
But you're never gonna let me end it, will you?
No you won't. Cuz that's what you do.
You just always have to make my like not easy.

I want things my way.
And this time I'm not giving up that easily.
I'm doing this and then ending all of it.
I don't care what you say.
Never again will I do what I don't wanna.