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I Killed My Weaknes Yesterday & Silent Motion Family

Today, 12th April 2009, Sunday, SM Lok Yuk got third place once again at Bakat Interact 2009!!!!

I Killed My Weaknes Yesterday (My band), who consist of Gavin Scott on the Lead, Nadz on the rhythm, Jones Peter on the bass, Jan on the drums, and Me, Liyana on the mic, and Silent Motion Family were the representatives from Lok Yuk.

I actually got the 5th position at first while our school's dance crew got the 9th. I asked them to switch with me cuz I wanted to be after La Salle, cuz we felt that they were our biggest competition. So yeah. We were RIGHT after La Salle. They were 8, while we were 9.

So the dance crew, Silent Motion Family, which is the combination of Silent Motion Crew and XOXO. They did their thing. And it was as good as it gets. But then All Saints dance crew was right after them, and if I were anyone else, I'd forgte about Lok Yuk.. I mean, I'd remember them but more focused on All Saints.

So, a little while before the Band's performance, a lot of them were telling me "Win this for the school!", "You're our only hope!"... Like... Oh shit... Like, PLEASE DON'T LEAVE THE WEIGHT OF THE SCHOOL ON ME!!!

But they did... And I sand my heart out while my band mates played they're hearts out... Pur perfomance was so full of energy! IT WAS F'ING AWESOME!!!

And after I came out from backstage after the performance, I wanted to cry. It was like a whole rollercoster of emotions!! And right when SMC saw me, they came towards me and they were like screaming, "Yeah! You rocked it! We totally won!! We could actually win this!!".... All that kinda stuff... It was awesome!

So, finally, we got third. Same as last year. But I feel that that's GREAT. Cuz a lot of us didn't think we could even place this year... And we did. And I don't wanna honk my own horn, but I feel that my band really helped our beloved school!

I think my rythmist, Nadz was really happy. He kept saying it was his own Birthday present to himself... Like, AWWWWWW!!! He was the one who went on stage to receive the prize, even though I wanted to. I let him, cuz I love him.. I mean, love him as a friend and brother.

I dunno what I'll do next year without Gavin, Jones, and Nadz... Who will be my guitarists? Who will back me up? No one can back me up like they did today...

I'm hoping this year, I'll get to play with them once more... just one more time... Just one more kick ass rock show!!

So, we won thrid this year. We won RM200 and that's probably going to the interact club for like Prom or something...

I am happy. I am... I truly am... I love my friends who made my performance into a rock show. I love my friends who screamed the whole 12 minutes. I love the people from my school who did that too. I thank the people who I dont know who also went infront and screamed and reached for my hand...

Thank You God for this most wonderful experience!

Imma be happy with 'em

So here's the thing...

I get to bring my band to Bakat.

But this one person, who's opinion means a lot to me, doesn't have faith in us.

Well, she didn't say it like that. She said there would be a lot of problems...

But I thought about it.

And I think, the more people that get this chance, the better.

So what if we suck?

We'll have fun sucking together.

We know in our hearts that we're giving it our all. Sweating our asses off! hahahah (private joke)

We don't care what the score is. Well, I don't. I dunno if the rest do...

Well, I don't care about what the old people think. I care about how the crowd feels.

I care about how much this opportunity means to them.

So, imma try to be happy doing the things we do together. Even though some don't think we can.

But I think I can. I think I can. I think I can!

Liyana, the little girl (and her band) that COULD.

That CAN!

That WILL!!

That will ROCK YOUR SOCKS OFF!!!

My Beautiful Little Mess

Its beautiful that I love you.
Its also a mess that I love you.

Its beautiful that I want you.
Its screwed up, wanting you.

Its beautiful that I need you.
Its F'ed up that I need you.


You are beautiful. But you are a mess.
You're a freaking beautiful mess.


You have my heart.
But we ARE worlds apart.

You are the brightest star in my night sky.
But will I ever be the dawn you love waking to?

You are my truth that the silence screams.
But will I ever be your whisper in the wind?

My first Medal... SILVER

Yesterday was the second Sports Day.
My teacher put down my name for the events Javelin and Short Putt. That's Lembing and Peluru for those who dont know.
I totally sucked at Javelin.
And for short putt....... here comes the shock...

I GOT SILVER!!

I know, like, SHOCKING right?

ME? An athlete??? HAHAHAHAHAH...

But yes. Its true.. Imma be representing school now..

And I didnt go to the meeting today... Im starting to wonder if there was one?

Any ways.. I've got nothing to blog about...

No one seems to...

everything changes at SIXTEEN

"My life changed the moment I turned 16"

We've all heard that before, haven't we? I definitely have...
And as the gap between 15 and 16 gets smaller, I can actually feel it...

I can feel the CHANGE..
Things have changed. Things ARE going to change.
I have changed and AM changing...

I am welcoming this change. Welcoming while hoping its a good change.
Am I changing into someone I wanna be?
Are things changing into what I'd like it to be..

So far...... Its all good...

But... If I pulled everything closer, would it all just slip away?



please dont slip away

this is late

Going through my photos on my computer, I realized that 2008 was a big year for me.
I have so much to be thankful for.
08 was the year my Music really kicked off.
08 was the year I started making a name for myself
08 was the year I really developed myself in what I love
08 was the year I lost and gained so much more
08 was the year I matured and tried learning to not let little things bother me
08 was the year that will change my life forever

"I wish I could repeat December 08" says Liyana
"NO! You were so busy!" Gina protested
"That's why! It was a great month. All the shows I got to do!" Liyana explained.

TEEHEE

I think I really need to thank God for all this. He has lead me to where I wanna be. He has brought me to places I never knew. Thank You Lord!

Ok. Let's come back to the present.

I wish I could stay in this moment.
The time where school is still not fully settled in yet.
The time where everything is going slow.
The time where I can keep hanging with my friends in class.
The time where teachers are still hardly in class.
The time where there's still time to go out and hang out.
The time where nothing really matters yet.
The time where all of us can tell each other really lame stuff and laugh together.
The time where new things start.
The time right now.
I could repeat these 2 weeks over and over again. Cuz the people I love are all present during this time.
I hope nothing changes. But I know that won't be. Cuz people go away. Well, in my case, just ONE person is leaving. I hope he doesn't. teehee. He makes us all laugh. TEEHEE.

I know its the beginning of the year, but I am SOOOOO happy you guys are in my life. I wanna thank you guys. I can't name everyone, cuz... erm... whatever. Anyways, we'll wait till Dec 09 and see if everyone is still here. Then I'll thank you guys.

HugHugKissKiss!!

(I can't be bothered with colors anymore)