Its Almost Over

PUASA....
Ahhhh, Puasa.
You shall end in two days time.
You have helped me loose some.
You have helped me clean myself
You have also put me through torture
You have made me go almost insane

The end of you means the start of Raya.

Raya....
Ahhhh, Raya.
You shall bring me joy and happiness in two days
You shall help me put on all the things I've lost with Puasa.
You make my Lola make great food
You make my Lolo and Uncles and Aunts and Parents gimme money.
You make me happy, Raya.
Yes you do.

HAHAHAHA

the little things you do to me are...

TAKING ME OVER...
hahaha
Sound familiar?

OK, anyways..
The little things you do (not necessarily to me) are cute and make me laugh.
Why did I not notice this before?
Why have you suddenly been on my mind more than usual lately?
I like this.
But sadly, it will never be.
The promise we made, was it for real? Or just for fun, for laughs?
It is still funny when I imagine ourselves keeping our word. HAHAHA.
Can you imagine us like that? HAHAHAHA.

I do still owe you that little thing. Make sure you claim your prize before the end of October. ^^
The thing that made me laugh that day was how you'd give up loads just for your prize.
Me : "If your answer is wrong, I won't give you your prize."
You : *Erases answer off papers*
HAHAHAHAHA...

I know the people who read this won't get it one bit.
Cool.

oh thank God

I'm never doing that again
Oh thank God everything was safe
I almost lost everything
I'll try it next time with a professional

Anyways, I caught you looking at me last night.
I saw that smile. It was cute.

I liked what I saw and I REALLY liked what I heard.
But I don't even know your name. I don't know where you're from.
But we have a month plus to find that out.
So, maybe next week we can sit together for a while?
Get to know what's behind that cute smile.
Looking forward to it.

I can't say

I can't say I love you. Cuz I don't know if I do.
I can't say I wanna be with you. Cuz I don't know if I do.
I can't say I know you. Cuz I don't know if I do.

I can't say what I feel. Cuz I don't know what it is that I feel.
I can't say what we are. Cuz I honestly don't know what we are.
I can't say that we're like this. Cuz I don't know if we're not that.

I can't say I know what happened. Cuz I don't.
I can't say I know what's GOING to happen. Cuz I don't.
I can't say I know we're gonna be together. Cuz I don't.

Am I angry? Or angry that I'm sad?
Do I hate you? Or just hate to let you go?
Do I love you? Or just love who you WERE.

I'm not sure if I hate you. But I'm not sure if I love you anymore either......