tell me

Tell me I'm pretty...

Tell me I'm charming...

Tell me I'm beautiful too...

Tell me I'm amazing...

Tell me everything I wanna hear....

Are you listening... Whoever you are?

random updates, feelings, words, thoughts. TADAA!!

what should this post be about?

TEEHEE

Well, let's just be random

Dad hates lok yuk.
Might be going to Sri Insan next year.

Brownies for Love?
How pathetic is that?

Me? Biggest Loser?
Uncle Joe and Dad!!! You're so mean!! (hahahahah. funny though)

60th Anniversary Vid a success!
a J.AM Production!

Puasa almost over.
Raya is coming my way!

Got RM10 duit Raya from Pn Afizah today.
How nice....

One in here, one in there.
one for ME!

I had you
Right there.
But lost you.

Why do I not seek your name?

I'm a good girl!
I SWEAR!!!

Haven't made out in a long time. (hahahahahahaha. crack myself up)

If I became a lesbian, would my friends still love me?

How about if I was Bi??

Hmmmm...

AHAHAHAHAHAHAH!!! That was random....

Painted my nails.
They SHINNY!!

Should I cut my hair?

My fringe is long.

RAYA MOOD!!

i like random.

its gonna take me a long time to colour and position each one of these.

but i gots time... TEEHEE!

I'm afraid to love you.

I <3>

I think God did this for me.

Thank You, God

I wrote an amazing essay today.
707 words.
Topic? MUSIC.
Like DDUUUHHHH!!!

"You are the music you choose"

damn right.

Can't think of anything else to say.

But still,
all I think of is "Who will be next?"

GLEEEEEE!!!

Liyana = Gleek!

DAMN STRAIGHT!!!

are you angry at me?

i have every right to be angry at you!

fat? YOU LEH?!?!

fine!

CHILLAX!!!

ok. chilled.

ok well, CIAO!

Years ago...

GOSH!!!

I was looking through my 2007 year book, and I saw pictures of myself.

GOSH I WAS SOOOOO "ATTRACTIVE"!!!

urgh.

I mean, seriously!

WHAT THE HELL??

I know i'm not like, FREAKISHLY fat or whatever, but honestly.... I looked pretty BAAADDDD....

sigh.

Like, I had boy friends then, and seriously, what did they see in me?

I had braces, a weird BIG ass smile, bad hair all tied back and clipped like a stupid nerdy good girl, and... well.... I guess that's it...

But NNNOOOOOWWWWW
I lost the braces, still have that BIG smile (but its nicer), my hair is better (got bangs and shit), and well, I guess I dress better.

So, this leads me to my next question.

If guys loved me then when I was SOOOO "attractive", why don't guys love me now that I'm BETTER than before??

FOOORRRRR RRREEAAAALLLL!!!!!

like, URGH.

I think 2009 is the year I change everything.

"When you turn 16, your world changes."

I've heard this before I turned 16. Thought it was crap.

Turns out.....

IT HOLDS TOO MUCH TRUTH!!!

Like even last year...

I had bad hair.

Bad skin.

Just bad looks I guess.

My jeans were baggy.

My shirts were plain.

I didn't wear accessories.

and just plain... PLAIN.

But at 16!!

WOOHOO!

I got nice blouses.

Skinny jeans.

Nice shoes.

Better bras.

Good jewelery.

Nice perfume.

Better hair style.

Just BETTERRRR...

Soooo.... yeah.

I'm waiting for your call, guys...

hahahha

that sounded lame.

and shitty.

and pathetic...

sigh.

well, I'm done complaining.

Lazy to colour this thing.

ciao

My confession to you, darling

Darling,

I can't face his question.

I know both roads would hurt one of us in some way.

There's is no way to do anything without hurting someone.

Its either I hurt myself, or I hurt him.

But I don't wanna hurt him like you hurt me.

So tell me, what do I do?

I know you couldn't possibly help me.

So why do I even bother asking you, you may ask.

Cuz I just needed a reason to talk to you.

SUBJECT CHANGE

Searching for you still....

Its been maybe more than a week since I wrote to you. But you haven't replied. You haven't been here.

Where have you been?

The only reason why I'm here is to see if you are here too. But the result disappoints me. Always.

Have you disappeared for good this time?

Maybe this heart should lose it's feelings for good this time too.

NEW SUBJECT (kinda. but still continue from previous subject)

Falling in and out of love....

But the problem is, I never fell out of love with you.

i DID stop loving you, cuz that was the right thing to do.

But I think, if a person doesn't fall out of love, and just stops loving another, it is TOO easy for that person to fall BACK in love with that other person.

Making any sense?

It does in MY head...

So darling, do something that will make me fall out of love with you. And NOT just stop loving you cuz its the right thing to do.

Nothing is "right" without you.

NEW SUBJECT

Filling this heart with too much emotion...

There has never been a moment when I wasn't smiling when I was with you.

My heart races when I see you.

My heart STOPS when you say something. :)

My heart skips a beat when you come close.

My heart jumps up and down when I'm with you.

But why can no other do that?

There WAS one other. But that "other", I could never have. Not that I want that "other" anymore. (hehehehe)

I've locked you away some time ago. But I save you, if I ever needed you again.

But it seems, I have never really fastened the lock properly. And I let you seep out now and again.

END

The chances of someone reading this is LOW. So, I don't care if I'm the most pathetic person in the world right now.

Like I said, "You ain't seen pathetic, until you've seen ME"

im sorry, darlingS

I'd send a postcard to you, dear
cuz I wish you were here......

Cuz when I'm with him,
I am thinking of you.

Tell me darling do you wish we'd fall in love?
All the time. All the time....

ssiiigggghhhh....

Is it wrong to be with someone when you're still wishing for someone else?

He doesn't make me laugh, like you do.
He doesn't have that memorable smile, like you do.
He doesn't have those beautiful eyes, like you do.
He doesn't have a lot of things you do,
but the difference is, he's taking his chance...

My heart is torn in two, thinking about you.

And I miss you.
And I hate you.

And I anxiously wait for you to appear.
But its been so long.
And waiting for you is too tiring.

I've given up on trying to give up.

Would it be wrong to be with a person just for the sake of being with that person?

I know it would.

What if I don't love him?

You got it, you got it. Some kind of magic.
Hypnotic, hypnotic. You're leaving me breathless...

giggles

WHAT IF I NEVER GET TO SEE YOU AGAIN?!?!?!
urgh. This is so frustrating!

I want you to want me.

I just wanna get to know you. Cuz what i feel right now, is an attraction. I wanna know if I should go along down that road and finally fall for you.

In other words, "I've heard your melody, and its stuck in my mind. Now I wanna know the lyrics, and see if its a song I wanna sing."

IS THAT TOO MUCH TO ASK??

ssssiiiggggghhhh.....

PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE, GOD!

Let me have the chances.


teehee

me and my heart, we got issues.

I've been really tryin, baby! Try'na hold back this feelin' for so long. But if you feel, like I feel, baby. Then C'mon. OH C'MON!!!
let's get it on!

I can't help but smile when I hear that song. HEEEHEEEHEEEHEE....

Oh crap. I can't remember what I was gonna write about.

Oh! I remember now.

ehm ehem...

Its nice to be appreciated.
Its nice to be fancied.
Its nice to be liked.
Its awesome to know that you are LOVED.
teehee.

Well, I have this issue in my heart. Why aren't I good enough?

Recently, someone I love made me feel like I was such a disappointment. Pathetic. Worthless. Useless. NOT GOOD ENOUGH.
No, these words did not come out straight from that person's mouth. But what he was saying to me, about how I am, made me feel like NOTHING. Like I AM NOTHING.

It hurt me so much. To hear him criticize me was like a blade stabbing me with every word.
It has happened before. But I don't know what happened different this time, I just can't seem to forgive him. I have this HATE in my heart for him.
Yes, I will always love him.
But right now, I can't even look him in the eye.

And I haven't looked at him in the eye these few days. I have however, exchanged few words with him. Like normal stuff.
Its been two days since that incident. And it has never taken this long to act as if it didn't happen. It usually takes me a few hours. But it has been more than two days now.

Even now, I don't think I can ever open myself to him anymore.

OK! CHANGING SUBJECT!
Thank you for closure. I know now. xD
Thank you for appreciating me.
Thank you for "falling" for me.
It makes me happy to talk to you.
It puts a smile on my face when you have time for me.
But I have to say that my heart is closed to you now. It is no longer for you.
Try as you might, you and I know it will never be good.
As much as I have wanted you, I must say that now I know I can never have you.
And it does not hurt me to know this truth. It used to. But not now.

But thank you for everything. I will never forget you, for you have helped me find closure for something very important to me.
"Try not to miss me when you're away"
*smile*

Loser no more

Right now I'm supposed to be ironing my uniform for school tomorrow. But, whatever.

All I can think about is how I feel towards you. Which is nothing.

i NOTHING you.

I know that it's over now. I feel nothing. You feel nothing.
Maybe I held on to you the way I did, because you actually looked me in the eyes, and saw me. For me. And most of all, you LOVED me. For me...

You loved me when I looked terrible.
You loved me when I wasn't my best.
I wasn't the most fantastic.
But still, you loved me...

But there's nothing left now.
And I'm not hurt.
I knew this was going to happen.
I was waiting for it.

But what bothers me now, is that there's no one who sees me for me anymore.
There's no one who feels the way you did about me.
It feels like there's no one who looks at me, and sees all the great things I am.

Why is that?

Why don't people see me the way you did?

How did you see my depth?
Why were'nt you a normal guy and just look for a easy, shallow girl?

How did you see my beauty?
Why were'nt you a normal guy and just look for a HOT, sexy girl?

How did you see my confidence?
Why weren't you a normal guy and just look for one of those "damsels in distress"?

Why did I, considering all the things I am, and am not, attract you?
How did I make you fall for me?

How did I, by just being me, make you love me?

I am so much.
I have so much to offer.
But why doesn't anyone see that?

I am not a loser anymore. Because I am not in love with you anymore.
Hence, the title....

I. AM. A. LOSER.

THE LOSER THAT'S IN LOVE WITH YOU

a.k.a. = ME

You ain't seen pathetic until you've seen me.
You ain't seen a loser until you've seen me.

Half true....

"You lose sleep over me, cuz I'm constantly running around in your mind and in your dreams."
"You lose your appetite cuz of me."
"You write songs about me."
"You miss me."

All those things you said (and more) are only HALF true...

I don't lose sleep over you. Well, not anymore.

I have never lost my appetite over anyone.

Yes, I write songs about you.

And yes, I miss you.

But you will never know. Well, maybe you will. But not now.

I"m trying my best to not give in to your charm.

You break my heart. All the time. And I can't trust you with my heart.

But you make it too easy for me to keep falling for you over and over again.

You missed your chance. But you said I missed mine.

What would it have been like together, I often wonder.

I think it would've been better than everything we already were.

But I've been dreaming too long.

I wanna wake up. Put the memory of you in a box. Lock it away.

But you come back, just when I forget you.

I don't wanna say I want you to go away.

I don't want you to.

But every time you come back, my face lights up. My heart lights up.

AND FOR WHAT?!?!?

For the pathetic little memory I save in my heart?
For the pathetic little fantasy I have in my heart?
For the pathetic little feeling I keep in my heart?

It shouldn't be like this.

But I'll take what I can get.
I'll take whatever little piece of you I can get.

And I'm sorry that I broke your heart to pieces, spat on it and ran it over.
But it's vice versa, Baby... VICE VERSA...


I know I'm special. Thank You for being the one to notice, and actually liking my specialness...

"This is the part where you break my heart.
Where you tear it all apart.
This is when you tell me goodbye.
Let go of my hand. And leave me there."

UPDATE!

Married.
LOL.
On Wednesday, I married Michelle Seck Wei Qi (is she gonna be mad that I wrote her full name? TEEHEE!) on FaceBook. She didn't taste like Cherry Chapsitck. Soooo disappointing. I divorced her after maybe an hour, cuz I wanted to marry someone else. HAHAHAHA. If I could've stayed married to her, I would've. But I couldn't... AWwwwwWWWwww.... Too bad...

We had an AWESOME lesbian bitch fight about our "marriage" on FaceBook. Its UBER funny!! So, yeah. The divorce was finalized and I married someone else. TEEHEE. All the comments about us being married were really funny. TEEHEE.

I cut my hair yesterday. If I knew how to style it right, my hair would totally be THE SHIT! Like, its SOOO rocker man! I've got bangs now, and my hair is thinner, and lighter, and so much nicer. Mom liked it FULL! But it was so hot under all that hair!

Anyway... I'm going to see the monkeys (the ones with the really big nose and eternal erection) and the fire flies tomorrow. TEEHEE. With the American volunteers for Habitat for Humanity. Its gonna be fun!

OH! Our school had "mini sukan" on Thursday. I didn't qualify for cakera, peluruh (so disapointed) OR running (like DUH). But I think I might have qualified for Javelin. TEEHEE. I've tried that before and SUCKED at it. This time, dunno why, I did it well. What does that mean for the future? TRAINING. UNDER THE HOT SUN! MISSING CLASS! NNNOOOOO!!! Can I NOT join? I guess I could... TEEHEE.

Our class lost its "Buku Urus Diri". And now everyone has to pay RM10, that's right, TEN DOLLARS! For one tiny little book that I don't even use. Like hell I'm gonna pay money for something I don't use. Yeah, I use the toilet, but mostly during recess. And in the four years I've been in that school, I think I only ever really needed to use that tiny book FOUR times... JUST four.... So, yeah. Send me to Lily. Call my parents and everything'll be alright. TEEHEE.

I made brownies today! They're not sweet enough though... Sad... But still. I like eating them... TEEHEE.

Every one's getting sick now. OH NO! beware... TEEHEE.

Science and Math to BM??!! Another reason for us to doubt them....

Performing Arts, Culinary, Event Management, Hotel Management, Resort Management.... WHICH ONE??!?!

Pants getting baggy at the ass area, means, ASS IS SHRINKING!!! NOOO!!! (good thing to I guess. NEW JEANS!!! TEEHEE!!)

Australians are funny! Mychonny, Yourchonny, communitychannel. AWESOME!!!

I read your blogs too!!!

CIAO!

it's been a long time...

I know its been a while since i wrote anything. Since April to be exact. Which makes it ALMOST three months since I last wrote anything.

I'm going to delete my last post, where I poured my heart and soul out and shit. Yeah. There it goes *delete*

Well, I can't actually delete it while I'm typing this. But by the time anyone reads this, it'll be gone.
Wait... No one really reads my blog right? Oh well... Whatever...

its July now. (DUH.. Like you didn't know that already?) And... What's been happening? Not much. Just drama. Well, DRAMA and Drama competition.

Well, what's life without drama?

Anyways. About HS! teehee. (my fav subject)
Garry is still Mr. P
I'm still HS VP
and G is still the Founder (like DUH. Founder can't be changed)

Aaron is SUDDENLY REALLY HS!! I know he's my slave and all, but he has never been that HS.
And the things he says bah!!! Like, SERIOUSLY!! I felt mentally harassed...

Today, I was:
Mentally harassed AGAIN by Aaron. (Dude... you DONT wanna know. Actually, if you were HS, you'd wanna know... TEEHEE)

Stabbed by Garry. (Why you like the backdoor? Why not front door huh??!! Just like up there, you wouldn't wanna know unless you HS. teeheee)

Frightened by this chick who asked me "Apa? Ada masalah?" (I talked about her, and she noticed, and she asked me that. All I said to Adew and Izzat was that I saw her at centre yesterday with the abang from the Canteen! SERIOUS!! And I think she thought that I was mad at her cuz when we(me, G, Maddie) were passing the Lab where her class was, we were talking a bit loud and she SHHHHHed us. Like, REALLY LOUDLY! HOW RUDE! of us... hahaha. NOT her... I DID SAY SORRY!!! DUDE. She could freaking kick my ass! )

Hit by Maddie ( cuz I kept ignoring her questions when she wanted to copy my science note. And I introduced her to this thing I have only ever done with my brother, and I call it "IN MY MIND". Which is something I do to annoy my bro. Its started when my bro and I were in the car... You know that game where you see that turle car, like Mr.Bean's car? Where you hit the person closest to you and your fingers do the PEACE thingy after you've hit them and said "wu gui che" which means TURLTE CAR. Yeah... He saw the car, and HIT me. And I was like, WTF? Then 2 minutes later, I did the same to him. And he was like, "WHERE? I DONT SEE IT!", and I took my fingers and did that GUN shape thing, put it to my forehead and said "IN MY MIND". He laughed so hard. I kept doing that to annoy him. So I did that to Maddie as well. I told her the story, and right after that, I said, "Look! Butterfly! IN MY MIND!!!" and did the finger thingy to the forehead when I said "IN MY MIND". I kept doing stuff like that for maybe ten minutes. And I stopped saying the words, but continued doing the action, and she knew just what I meant. TEEHEE!!)

I just thought about my love life. Wait. What love life???
Well, yeah. I don't have one. Unless you count my fake oneS with some of the boys in my class... TEEHEE... My three husbands and one more, my FIRST one, in some other class... SORRY CHERYL!! teehee.
The last time I had a crush on someone was... I dunno. A month ago?
It was one the same guy I has a crush on last year. Yeah.. If you read my blogs, you'd know who.
He suddenly came back into my life just as my heart was breaking. He seemed to put the pieces back together. He made me happy, jsut when I thought I'd be miserable.

He satyed for a while in my life... he stole my heart. And then? He went MIA... I should've seen it coming. Cuz that's exactly what happened last year.

So yeah... I was a little broken...
But he came back, and made it all better again. And left again.
This 'leaving and returning' thing he does, is SOOOO his trademark.
Well, ups and downs, he made me go through.... (woah.. That was SOOOO Master Yoda!)
Cried over him.
Lost sleep over him.
Wrote song(yes, just one. Well, not even a full one. Just HALF a song. Well, not really even half. Quater lah. Yeah.. 1/4 ONLY) about him.
Fell for him. (Pathetic. I know.)
BUT!!
I got over him as well.
But it hurts to know he left without a goodbye. I mean, did I mean nothing to him?
I know I meant SOMETHING to him once. But do you really just cancel a person out of your life when you think there's nothing there to be done with that person? I mean, he said he ONCE had feelings for me... But do guys just cancel out girls when both sides agree that they're not worth each other's time? DAMN. SO FRUSTRATED.
But whatever....
Its over.
But I hate how he can just pull my heart strings like the puppet master... The last thing I remember he said to me before he left was "luv you".
Here's how it went: (its really short)
purple me, blue him.
ok. well, i gtg change first. so, imma be away for like, a minute or two. try not to miss me so much k, baby?
i'll try my best.
(at this point i checked some of my other stuff like FB before I went to my room. Then he wrote my another msg, which was)
luv you
erm.... love you too?? (really shocked....)
that was new
yeah, we have to try new things everyday to keep things interesting....

ok, like WTF??? Anyways, it didn't mean anything... Which it should have. But I knew it didn't... Its alright... Its all in the past. I'm just telling you cuz its been a while since I wrote. Just writing everything I remember.

So, back to the topic of my "love life".
I DON'T HAVE ONE. Well, not a real one....
That's the conclusion.

Right now I'm waiting for Cheryl to come over. I'm taking her to the Welcome Dinner for the American voulnteers for the charity that my daddy is a Board Member of, Habitat For Humanity. Its a really good charity. Every year, this organisition bulids homes for the poor. AWESOME, RIGHT??? Well, I'm only bringing her cuz she's OBSESED with org putih. And I wanna show her that they're just like us. Well, I'm also bringing her to the Farewell Dinner for the French students who've voulnteered. They weill be closer in age to us compared to the Americans. The Americans voulnteers are mostly Uni students. Some even doing Masters. OLD-NESS!! hahhaah. but WISE.... lol....
And I told her its EXTREMELY CASUAL... Which means nothing to her. Which means she'll be there in heals, make up, fancy accesories and shit. SOOO NOT CASUAL. "brought up like that" she says.... yeah.... well..... yeah.....

Well, I'mma end this now. Cuz I'm hungry!!
Ciao babes! Love you loads!

every broken little piece spilled right in front of you.. for you...

DELETED

I Killed My Weaknes Yesterday & Silent Motion Family

Today, 12th April 2009, Sunday, SM Lok Yuk got third place once again at Bakat Interact 2009!!!!

I Killed My Weaknes Yesterday (My band), who consist of Gavin Scott on the Lead, Nadz on the rhythm, Jones Peter on the bass, Jan on the drums, and Me, Liyana on the mic, and Silent Motion Family were the representatives from Lok Yuk.

I actually got the 5th position at first while our school's dance crew got the 9th. I asked them to switch with me cuz I wanted to be after La Salle, cuz we felt that they were our biggest competition. So yeah. We were RIGHT after La Salle. They were 8, while we were 9.

So the dance crew, Silent Motion Family, which is the combination of Silent Motion Crew and XOXO. They did their thing. And it was as good as it gets. But then All Saints dance crew was right after them, and if I were anyone else, I'd forgte about Lok Yuk.. I mean, I'd remember them but more focused on All Saints.

So, a little while before the Band's performance, a lot of them were telling me "Win this for the school!", "You're our only hope!"... Like... Oh shit... Like, PLEASE DON'T LEAVE THE WEIGHT OF THE SCHOOL ON ME!!!

But they did... And I sand my heart out while my band mates played they're hearts out... Pur perfomance was so full of energy! IT WAS F'ING AWESOME!!!

And after I came out from backstage after the performance, I wanted to cry. It was like a whole rollercoster of emotions!! And right when SMC saw me, they came towards me and they were like screaming, "Yeah! You rocked it! We totally won!! We could actually win this!!".... All that kinda stuff... It was awesome!

So, finally, we got third. Same as last year. But I feel that that's GREAT. Cuz a lot of us didn't think we could even place this year... And we did. And I don't wanna honk my own horn, but I feel that my band really helped our beloved school!

I think my rythmist, Nadz was really happy. He kept saying it was his own Birthday present to himself... Like, AWWWWWW!!! He was the one who went on stage to receive the prize, even though I wanted to. I let him, cuz I love him.. I mean, love him as a friend and brother.

I dunno what I'll do next year without Gavin, Jones, and Nadz... Who will be my guitarists? Who will back me up? No one can back me up like they did today...

I'm hoping this year, I'll get to play with them once more... just one more time... Just one more kick ass rock show!!

So, we won thrid this year. We won RM200 and that's probably going to the interact club for like Prom or something...

I am happy. I am... I truly am... I love my friends who made my performance into a rock show. I love my friends who screamed the whole 12 minutes. I love the people from my school who did that too. I thank the people who I dont know who also went infront and screamed and reached for my hand...

Thank You God for this most wonderful experience!

Imma be happy with 'em

So here's the thing...

I get to bring my band to Bakat.

But this one person, who's opinion means a lot to me, doesn't have faith in us.

Well, she didn't say it like that. She said there would be a lot of problems...

But I thought about it.

And I think, the more people that get this chance, the better.

So what if we suck?

We'll have fun sucking together.

We know in our hearts that we're giving it our all. Sweating our asses off! hahahah (private joke)

We don't care what the score is. Well, I don't. I dunno if the rest do...

Well, I don't care about what the old people think. I care about how the crowd feels.

I care about how much this opportunity means to them.

So, imma try to be happy doing the things we do together. Even though some don't think we can.

But I think I can. I think I can. I think I can!

Liyana, the little girl (and her band) that COULD.

That CAN!

That WILL!!

That will ROCK YOUR SOCKS OFF!!!

My Beautiful Little Mess

Its beautiful that I love you.
Its also a mess that I love you.

Its beautiful that I want you.
Its screwed up, wanting you.

Its beautiful that I need you.
Its F'ed up that I need you.


You are beautiful. But you are a mess.
You're a freaking beautiful mess.


You have my heart.
But we ARE worlds apart.

You are the brightest star in my night sky.
But will I ever be the dawn you love waking to?

You are my truth that the silence screams.
But will I ever be your whisper in the wind?

My first Medal... SILVER

Yesterday was the second Sports Day.
My teacher put down my name for the events Javelin and Short Putt. That's Lembing and Peluru for those who dont know.
I totally sucked at Javelin.
And for short putt....... here comes the shock...

I GOT SILVER!!

I know, like, SHOCKING right?

ME? An athlete??? HAHAHAHAHAH...

But yes. Its true.. Imma be representing school now..

And I didnt go to the meeting today... Im starting to wonder if there was one?

Any ways.. I've got nothing to blog about...

No one seems to...

everything changes at SIXTEEN

"My life changed the moment I turned 16"

We've all heard that before, haven't we? I definitely have...
And as the gap between 15 and 16 gets smaller, I can actually feel it...

I can feel the CHANGE..
Things have changed. Things ARE going to change.
I have changed and AM changing...

I am welcoming this change. Welcoming while hoping its a good change.
Am I changing into someone I wanna be?
Are things changing into what I'd like it to be..

So far...... Its all good...

But... If I pulled everything closer, would it all just slip away?



please dont slip away

this is late

Going through my photos on my computer, I realized that 2008 was a big year for me.
I have so much to be thankful for.
08 was the year my Music really kicked off.
08 was the year I started making a name for myself
08 was the year I really developed myself in what I love
08 was the year I lost and gained so much more
08 was the year I matured and tried learning to not let little things bother me
08 was the year that will change my life forever

"I wish I could repeat December 08" says Liyana
"NO! You were so busy!" Gina protested
"That's why! It was a great month. All the shows I got to do!" Liyana explained.

TEEHEE

I think I really need to thank God for all this. He has lead me to where I wanna be. He has brought me to places I never knew. Thank You Lord!

Ok. Let's come back to the present.

I wish I could stay in this moment.
The time where school is still not fully settled in yet.
The time where everything is going slow.
The time where I can keep hanging with my friends in class.
The time where teachers are still hardly in class.
The time where there's still time to go out and hang out.
The time where nothing really matters yet.
The time where all of us can tell each other really lame stuff and laugh together.
The time where new things start.
The time right now.
I could repeat these 2 weeks over and over again. Cuz the people I love are all present during this time.
I hope nothing changes. But I know that won't be. Cuz people go away. Well, in my case, just ONE person is leaving. I hope he doesn't. teehee. He makes us all laugh. TEEHEE.

I know its the beginning of the year, but I am SOOOOO happy you guys are in my life. I wanna thank you guys. I can't name everyone, cuz... erm... whatever. Anyways, we'll wait till Dec 09 and see if everyone is still here. Then I'll thank you guys.

HugHugKissKiss!!

(I can't be bothered with colors anymore)

new year, new class, new things to kick ass at!

So, I don't think I've blogged about anything since the new year. TEEHEE
So, its the new year.... ermmm.... yay?
So far I've only gone through 2 days of school. Not too bad. Getting used to it.
The... erm.... Good or bad part about it is that its on the FOURTH FLOOR. The highest.
Bad cuz it gets so tiring. Good cuz imma be so skinny by the end of this year. TEEHEE
So, yeah. LOL was last year. This year its TEEHEE. For me I mean.
My classmates....hmmmm... are...... INVISIBLE? Well, to me, SOME are.
I have fun with SOME selected people only.
So, you selected people should feel very fortunate that I choose to hang with you.
HAHAHAHA. Yeah, that's just me being perasan.
Yeah, that's something that makes you laugh eh?
So, our teachers keep warning us that form 4 will be a culture shock for us.
Yeah. I'm waiting for that.
So far its not too bad. I think this year will be good. TEEHEE
So, I've got it all planned out.
Bakat Lok Yuk first
Then Bakat Interact
Battle of the Bands
KK Music Fest

Hmmmm... That's what I know of now.
More gigs will surely show themselves to me...

TEEHEE

So, I think I'm done now.

I leave you with a TEEHEE